@time: snap-it!

For the past couple of days, I have been thinking of purchasing my dream item – a digital SLR. Actually, I’ve been planning to buy this since Christmas of 2009. However, looks like time is not my friend.

Last year, I am just one credit card away of getting that DSLR. It was a Sunday. I already researched the specs, the best deal, warranty, etc. When I got home to finally decide if I will buy it or not, I thought that my billing cut-off is on the 10th of next month (which is January already). With that, I thought maybe it would be better if I’ll just postponed my purchasing after that day, since this would let me start paying the next month already (February). And so I did. No camera for now.

The billing cut-off day came and passed by. However, for some strong instinct and urge, I thought of leaving my company and look for another job (of course I came up with this idea because of a lot of factors). Now, since I am having a plan of moving to other company, I became quite hesitant in buying anything expensive. I am afraid that I would lose my savings just because of a single item that could wait for another perfect time. And so, for the second time around, no camera for now.

I filed for a resignation but decided to come back to that same company (this is because I am left with no choice. God knows that) after a couple of weeks – yes, weeks only. And so, my finances are somewhat stable again and thought it is the perfect time for me to buy that DSLR I am longing for. Then, I thought (yes, again) that my little sister is going to college next school year. The schools she managed to get in are quite expensive. We are not that rich to manage our family expenses easily. I never promised to anybody that I will be taking care of the tuition fees or anything. But I don’t know, I felt that it is not appropriate for me to buy an expensive item at this moment. I felt like the same thing as being unethical. And so, I am having my second thoughts again. No camera for now or yes to camera? – that I don’t know.

Golden Ticket

It is Monday, December 21, 2009. Start of another week, start of another blog (yey!), one day closer to Christmas Holiday, but still here stuck in the office editing and reading lots of documents. Wonder when I can buy that Christmas wish – a shiny digital single lens reflex (DSLR). I want it, because I am planning to have my long-time frustration come true (now that is a great way to start year 2010).

Now, the BIG question lies: Will my goal finally “materialize” in the next few years?

I always ask myself how will I succeed? I can’t find any answers. I asked that ever since I known the definition and importance of the word success. I already scanned my imaginarium from the most sabaw idea to the almost most-brilliant thought.

There are tons of things I am never good at. Writing to me is a fail – but I graduated with a degree in Communications, major in Journalism. I don’t know how I survived with my editor-in-chief professor. To him: the grades tres is cool, while dos is the highest. Another fall short thing to me is Sports. I play basketball, volleyball, badminton, and a lot more – but again, I never been expert in one sport.

Still no answers, until my last year in college.

If my memory serves me right, I am enrolled in Photojournalism that time. I never felt better than anybody else until that phase in my fail life came. I always (well, most of the time) get the highest scores during exhibits. My classmates often find my work cool, beautiful and nice (that I don’t know if they are serious, but at least most of them are my real friends so I am quite sure they mean it). Then, the light bulb above my cranky brain sounded “ting!”

Here are some of my shots (but not on my Photojourn subject, can’t find it. Dang!).

Is this my niche? Maybe I already found the GOLDEN TICKET.

Can’t be sure until the imaginarium is tested.